happy valentine’s day, ppl.

so here i am, hit by depression again, just as biorhythm predicted: right on valentine’s day. bravo.

valentine’s day could be really annoying sometimes. or always. at least for me it is.

and this year i didn’t really care.

what i kept saying was all lies, lies, lies. a part of me knows the truth as clearly as others do. and the other part of me, -fortunately a greater part-fights desparately to deny the the truth.

this is how i remain ignorant of all that’s been going on. and most of all, remain silent and sensible and rational.

i was reading The Dogs of Babel in library. there were a few moments i had to fight back the urge of crying out loud. Lexy wanted to die, and so did i, except for the suicide part.

there are some moments that u just want to get away from this world. despise all the griefs u are about to bring to ur family and friends. u just want to be burried with the deads. relaxed, silent, in peace.

my dear, i miss u. i miss u all. u are precious to me like never before.