happy valentine’s day, ppl.

so here i am, hit by depression again, just as biorhythm predicted: right on valentine’s day. bravo.

valentine’s day could be really annoying sometimes. or always. at least for me it is.

and this year i didn’t really care.

what i kept saying was all lies, lies, lies. a part of me knows the truth as clearly as others do. and the other part of me, -fortunately a greater part-fights desparately to deny the the truth.

this is how i remain ignorant of all that’s been going on. and most of all, remain silent and sensible and rational.

i was reading The Dogs of Babel in library. there were a few moments i had to fight back the urge of crying out loud. Lexy wanted to die, and so did i, except for the suicide part.

there are some moments that u just want to get away from this world. despise all the griefs u are about to bring to ur family and friends. u just want to be burried with the deads. relaxed, silent, in peace.

my dear, i miss u. i miss u all. u are precious to me like never before.

my minicity.

its been a  long time since my last login. i even forgot my password and had to reset it.

ne ways.

http://another-side.myminicity.com/

my minicity. just click the link above and become an inhabitant. as the population increases, i can develop transportation, industry and stuff.

so welcome to my minicity and feel free to post ur msg there!

death of a city.

70 years ago, a city died in far east, and never had it been reborned and alive again. 300,000 deaths cannot be swept away from the memory of the city: Nanking is now immersed and enshrouded by its own unbearable history. The Atrocity had taken away all its liveliness and happiness. Although the city was rebuilt, the spirit could not be reborned. It died, truly died, and no weep or lament could ever possibly bring it back again. Never forget the Rape of Nanking; forgetting history means betrayal.

Nov. 17

i watched interview with the vampire again today. quite a good movie i think. full of good actors (Tom Cruise!*v*)but the background music is terrible…

i had a little discussion with my friends a few days ago in an accounting class(accounting sux!). apparently they considered it cool to become a vampire; a immortal life seemed quite desirable. it was hard to persuade them that living a endless life is actually painful and desparate. just imagine seeing the sunrise for one last time, i said to them. julie shrugged and said that she hated sun. what if u never grow up and change your shape, i said. christina just laughed and said that would be perfect – being young forever!

if i was going to make that decision, i would choose a mortal life. to grow up, to change, to get old, to die. those are the beauty of life. without death, life would seem so weak and dimished that even life itself would become pointless. immortality, or eternity, is such a thing: first you get excited about it, then you get tired,  untill it becomes a torment to even take another breath. the loneliness, the pain and the memories will pile up inside you and enshroud you and suffocate you. your soul is dead, your heart is rotten, yet you are alive.

interview with the vampire is quite different from other vampire movies. it’s almost the only one to actually focus on the loneliness and tiredness of being immortal. louis is weak yet strong, both being a human and a vampire. he is too weak to do evil things, too weak to grasp his one last piece of humanity inside him. yet he is being himself, and that’s the beauty of him, the reason why lestat and armand so desperately long for him.

i wish my friends could watch this movie; it makes the sunlight even brighter than it had ever been.

moving again?!

i just created a blog on vox yesteraday, and with my fc2 one still being used, now i’m creating this one… there’s no particular reason why i began to sign up for blogs so frequently, i guess im just being bored lol

or i guess im just trying to find a stable blog-hosting site that has pretty templates… a blog that can be presented to any one…and now i think i found it, unless china block it(again…

so i’ll see and decide which one im gonna use… i’ve already fell in love with this template(lol